Hello Darkness My Old Friend...let's hug it out?

Woow! it's been a very long while, and so much and yet nothing has changed BAHA how perfect. Seriously though..when is it not serious? hahaha. I am in a very weird mood compared to the other posts, I must say that I am back. I keep saying that and than I nosedive back into the obsession..I do have a problem with focusing intensly on someone/thing I want. But I really will make more of an effort to focus it on other things, I'm getting there:) and I am happy and excited for this fact..summer is coming, the one time of year I give up and let go:) this year is going to be special I can tell..and it terrifies me. interesting. But things will turn out. With or without my OCD tendencies, probably more so without..ha.