So light up..light up

I have a secret..or at least I had one. Sometimes I find secrets are better buried.. sometimes the light turns them inside out.

"I can hardly speak and I understand why you can't lend your voice to say..to think I might not see those eyes makes it so hard not to cry, and as we say our goodbyes.."

I am left to wonder// wtf went so wrong? trusting people? or trusting the wrong people?

here is a poem I wrote. And I love it cause it makes perfect sense to me in everyway:)

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Stupid boys will break silly girls hearts if they let them.
But silly girls will never break stupid boys hearts because they hide them.

" So light up, light up..because even if you don't have a voice..I'll be right beside you dear"

Baby, Baby everything is going to be ok

So..Nothing new on the western front. Still courting I suppose..more like stalking without results. LOL. I am in a fantastic mood, because my wife came over tonight..she makes me happy:) We're having a sleepover soon..mm. LOL. This blog seems to be purely for her enjoyment..so I will entertain, yes? I would just like to state in WRITING> that she is almost always right, and I do hear what she is saying but I don't always follow through..so that was one of my secret new year resolutions. I have many. ew. But I am courageous, and stubborn..I will succeed..or kill myself depending on results LMAO. I am funnny. Anyways I am procrastinating again..going to sleep. I hate thoughts, especially the stupid repetitive ones. This year which will make the wife clap in her chair..is about...going with the flow, which I translated after yearrss. as...letting go. :) So here goes.

Letting go list.

Saying yes when I should say no
bringing up the past over and over. let it die.
realizing I am always pretty, work on insecurities.
let go when a boy doesn't like me
stop running away from feelings.
stop analyzing everything. all the time. every minute.
Just chill out.
Stop complaining..even about the good.
Less pessimism makes everyone happier
Smile more

Peace and love. XO. List is a work in progress..like me:)