Reading List: Part Two

Read so far:

Mermaid Chair
Eat Pray Love
The Island (great!! want her other books now)
The Virgin Suicides (great fast read..kinda dark and disturbed)
All the borrowers again except for afield (in the mail again, technical difficulty)
Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood (my work-break book)
Villete (started..very slow hard read..bought a dictionary/thesaurus)

New Books to the Reading List:

Virginia Woolf (in the mail! Ms Dalloway, and the Lighthouse)
Either Emily Dickinson or John Keats..( can't remember which I bought)
City of Bones/Ashes/Glass Collection
Penchance to dream/ Eyes like Stars
Wuthering Heights ( will need dictionary)
Jane Eyre again( loved it, dictionary this time)

I like it Rough

OK Posted it in wrong account first..LOL. But yes had a rambo-mermaid photoshoot today with the wifey..it went spectacularly (minus the bugs, bites, and ant in my mouth) but I did my hair in this wicked 80's ghetto updo and sadly..it got zero photos:( so in it's honour..I did a homespun photoshoot..(with pretty dress, and earrings of course! sorry hair) Here it is:)

Dancing On My Own

Summer Reading List!!!

My fave time killer:)

1) Eat Pray Love ( looved it)
2) Mermaid's Chair ( Book was way better than movie, and very intriguing)
3) Sookie Stackhouse (8 books,haven't started any yet)
4) Her Painful Symmetry (Started, alittle depressing/angsty..not in the mood)
5) The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (started, not in the mood)
6) The Virgin Suicides( In the mail:) )
7) Memoirs of a Geisha
8) the Borrower's Set ( Re-reading, 4 in set)
9) Ian Rankin Novels ( see what he writes like)
10) Lauren Conrad's L.A Candy
11) The Carrie Diaries
12) Sex and the City ( in the mail!! so pumped looved the show/movies)

Walk This Way... for Hells Bells.

For you lover.

So Again..It's been afew..days. But I really haven't had a lot to say, I was just floating through the last couple weeks, with work mostly. But to be real, I flaked out because I bunkered down inside my cave, and stewed..in myself. LOL, some thoughts, old patterns, went off to a wedding in Muskoka..the like. Read some books I had ordered and it was actually a lovely little hermitage. This week was technically my head breaking the surface of a placid lake, I went out, saw my work girls, wrote some short stories, getting better everytime:):) and meet an old crush.. Sparks?? not sure yet. I'm holding back, being cautious and letting the cards fall their own way this time. If it's meant to be..we shall see. But.. my intuition is still tickling my fanny on another muse, so again time well tell. I don't want to leap again and break another tender piece of myself, so I will let someone else figure it out..no pushing or controlling this time, honestly..I'm pretty worn out with all my strategies,obsessing and..manipulating lol. But good things are afoot, like I said summer is my homeboy:D Career in progress starting September, organizing, writing, some new creative ideas for art forming yes yes a full plate it would seem. Happy chaos,my fave;) So here's some random pics of old and new things I've done.

Hello Darkness My Old Friend...let's hug it out?

Woow! it's been a very long while, and so much and yet nothing has changed BAHA how perfect. Seriously though..when is it not serious? hahaha. I am in a very weird mood compared to the other posts, I must say that I am back. I keep saying that and than I nosedive back into the obsession..I do have a problem with focusing intensly on someone/thing I want. But I really will make more of an effort to focus it on other things, I'm getting there:) and I am happy and excited for this fact..summer is coming, the one time of year I give up and let go:) this year is going to be special I can tell..and it terrifies me. interesting. But things will turn out. With or without my OCD tendencies, probably more so without..ha.

So light up..light up

I have a secret..or at least I had one. Sometimes I find secrets are better buried.. sometimes the light turns them inside out.

"I can hardly speak and I understand why you can't lend your voice to say..to think I might not see those eyes makes it so hard not to cry, and as we say our goodbyes.."

I am left to wonder// wtf went so wrong? trusting people? or trusting the wrong people?

here is a poem I wrote. And I love it cause it makes perfect sense to me in everyway:)

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Stupid boys will break silly girls hearts if they let them.
But silly girls will never break stupid boys hearts because they hide them.

" So light up, light up..because even if you don't have a voice..I'll be right beside you dear"

Baby, Baby everything is going to be ok

So..Nothing new on the western front. Still courting I suppose..more like stalking without results. LOL. I am in a fantastic mood, because my wife came over tonight..she makes me happy:) We're having a sleepover soon..mm. LOL. This blog seems to be purely for her enjoyment..so I will entertain, yes? I would just like to state in WRITING> that she is almost always right, and I do hear what she is saying but I don't always follow through..so that was one of my secret new year resolutions. I have many. ew. But I am courageous, and stubborn..I will succeed..or kill myself depending on results LMAO. I am funnny. Anyways I am procrastinating again..going to sleep. I hate thoughts, especially the stupid repetitive ones. This year which will make the wife clap in her chair..is about...going with the flow, which I translated after yearrss. as...letting go. :) So here goes.

Letting go list.

Saying yes when I should say no
bringing up the past over and over. let it die.
realizing I am always pretty, work on insecurities.
let go when a boy doesn't like me
stop running away from feelings.
stop analyzing everything. all the time. every minute.
Just chill out.
Stop complaining..even about the good.
Less pessimism makes everyone happier
Smile more

Peace and love. XO. List is a work in progress..like me:)

We go out..guns' a blazin'.

So the hunt is back on my dear friend(s).

I have heard the juiciest gossip and I just can't wait to hatch my plan. :) oh yes. This will be kinda difficult I suppose and the question could be.. do I have enough patience to get what I want this time? Since this is a very on the down low ...which I dread, and am terrible at achieving...and once again could take a very loong courtship I'm sure..agh I feel like some old western. Argh. Peace and Love off to work soon..ew no sleep and a long tedious shift ahead of me. Yay.

When two become one.

So I love Sarah's idea about the list of things to do before your birthday..so I wanna do it. Even though my birthday was in November..I will start now. So I'm guessing it's 22 things to do before I'm 23? I feel lazy right now..so I will start with a few.

1. Go skydiving!

2. Go camping..old school.

3. Get in shape so I can get my bellybutton pierced:)

4. Followed by wearing a cute bikini.

5. Organize all my paperwork and art wardrobe.

6. Wear my high heels out somewhere more than twice.

7.Visit a creepy place at night.

8. Watch a scary movie fully.

9. Get a pedi.

.....and thats my start:)